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[16 Aug 2007|04:30pm] |
i feel like i need to update everyone. even though the only person who reads this is probably myself.
May 15th- I totaled my car coming home from my current boyfriend Koltens dad's house. I had that 2000 Honda Accord and I over corrected twice and flipped my car 3 times and the passenger side hit a tree at 10:55. I was alone and an off duty detective found me and I was trapped upside down for 45 minutes while the fire department cut me out.. hands down scariest but most real night of my life.
June- lost that boyfriend. But went to court for my accident and went to driving school and bought a new car. Wouldn't trust my life with any other car but a Honda so i got another Honda Accord, same color and all. Just with a sunroof and other little gadgets.
Julyish- Micheles parents went out of town and we basically had the best party of my life at her house annd I met Maxx for the first time and made a fool of myself and made out with my gorgeous best friend while Jack videotaped it. And Michele talked to her dad while she was shitfaced drunk and told him that in fact she WAS shitfaced drunk, so we got busted. And i threw up more in that night than my entire life combined.
August- Ever since Micheles party Maxx and I continued hanging out and just recently started dating him. Michele and I are getting ready to leave for Myrtle Beach this Saturday and I'm ready. Ready to get into whatever trouble i need to get in.. what ever happens will happen and i'm so ready for this next week to be amazing. south carolina isnt ready for whats coming on Saturday...
Eric and Aimee are coming next Thursday after i get back to say basicaly goodbye until Christmas. I kind of hate the fact they go to Radford or maybe I hate the fact they still go there after what happened to Brandon. I wanted them to come back home and stay in Bowling Green or maybe even Richmond so we could all get through this together. But Im not about to blame them for anything, I love them so much and Im looking forward to coming home to 2 of the 3 people I love most in my life.
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| My Guardian Angel at Tech |
[17 Apr 2007|08:10pm] |
So this is my Brandon from Bowling Green Virginia. I met him about 2 years ago at an apartment of a long time friend of mine and he is a sophmore at Virginia Tech. I got a phone call from Dylan yesterday at 2:45 saying that his mom had left for Blacksburg and 2 other close friends Aimee and Brett had left Radford University to meet her there. I then received another phone call about 2 hours later. Brandon was leaving the doorway of his classroom at some point after 10 am yesterday and was shot once in the throat and killed. All of his family and friends stayed at his house in Bowling Green last night to wait for his mom to return home and to remember this amazing guy. There was never a time that I didn't look at him and smile when I saw him on the weekends and laughed at anything. I love him more than life itself and will hold onto him where ever I go. I'm just asking everyone to please pray for his mother and all of us who care for him with our whole hearts to get us through and keep us together while we move forward in this tragedy. 8.3.87 - VT 4.16.07 |
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[14 Mar 2007|02:41pm] |
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I knew it would come to the point where it was all he wanted. But I didn't expect him of all people to bring up the years. I gave him a shot but I figured out it's not really me he gives a damn about anymore.
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[13 Feb 2007|08:48pm] |
My livejournal oh my god my livejournal
Tomorrow's valentines day. and I'm thinking about not even waking up at all.
Today was supposed to be a great day, I got inducted into the National Art Honors Society that my dad couldn't be there for but I basically feel like I'm losing everything I knew about one of my great friends. you know when you're friend has a friend and that relationship is always weird like competitive? i've honestly tried to stay as far away from that as I could this time, but maybe there is just something about me that people truly don't like but how am I supposed to know what it is and how to fix it?
Remember last year when I went out with Josh for Valentines Day.. I got dressed up & we went out for dinner and he got a headache and basically didn't talk to me the entire time? Well the waiter even felt bad for me..
And right now? I'd rather have that dinner than go to school tomorrow.
Michele and I have quit being non social and hang out all the time again. We're even co- Outbackers..No weird feelings anywhere about anything and we're going for coffee tomorrow to bash pathetic kids.
And to top everything off, this was said to me just minutes ago.. "im glad that you are going to hate tomorrow, because you are bringing it on yourself" I guess it's true then.. there's something about me I can't fix.
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[30 Dec 2006|11:36pm] |
I've never been so over something in my life.
Never.. never in my life. I've really never been so right.
I obiviously am still wearing that sign that says 'Just Fuck Me Over TODAY!'
I just want to watch my movie again and again until 12:01 tomorrow night and just say screw 2007.
I'm really over everything and everyone.
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| Christmas in New York City.. |
[29 Dec 2006|03:29pm] |
I just got back from New Jersey and New York last night. It was really fun actually. I realized that I am a city kind of girl, I couldn't live in a small town.. but New York City is a little much for me. I think it might be a better idea to go back when it's not the busiest week of the year up there. I realized I'm very happy living where I do, on the east coast anyway. I don't need to go to California.. I think I'm more of a hat and scarf kind of girl and I'm fine with that. We'll have to plan another trip like this very soon.. more shopping of course.
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[11 Dec 2006|04:41pm] |
These shoes.... my birthday present.
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[06 Dec 2006|09:08pm] |
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Josh and I are working things out. We're actually dating and back together but we're doing things very carefully this time. We're trying really hard not to make the same mistakes and he's doing a great job. I'm just glad he's a good enough person that he realized he was wrong. Hopefully things will work out for the best with us and I'm pretty happy that I gave this a try. I love you kidd!
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[18 Oct 2006|08:54pm] |
Friendship is based on honesty and trust is it not?
Just let me know one of these days if I'm wrong.
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| Tonight you'd fall for anyone. |
[16 Oct 2006|07:39pm] |
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Josh came over today and we wrote ourselves a contract. It ended so well actually, we got everything out in the open and we're starting completely over as friends. I just hope he can keep this promise of not holding things over my head. I hate to say it but my life was alot less complicated when I was in a relationship with him. I sound just like I did before I met him, mad. I wish I never heard her name come out of his mouth, I wish that things were fine and we watched movies every weekend and literally spent every moment together sitting here in the office on the floor. I miss jumping up when my parents walked in the room. I miss getting kissed on the hand and dancing in the street. I miss the worst one year anniversary I could have asked for. I miss the Valentines Day dinner that I hated. I miss having to rush and write a letter to him every month, because that was my job. I miss having a date to every even I went to, and I miss having someone to eat dinner with when my parents are out. I remember the first time I ate dinner alone and how I couldn't touch my food because his seat was empty. But I hate having to fight my ex boyfriend to not tell my parents all this crap. I hate fighting with him and slapping him in the face in my driveway. But everything else.. I miss. The walk to the dam in Pound, the tennis courts, Christmas. I want to miss him the way I did when he was gone in Haiti. I want to be as naive as I was when I called and Rachel was in his bed. I'm tired of knowing everything.
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[09 Oct 2006|06:49pm] |
This weekend was one hell of an event. I spent 90 percent of it with Morgan.. and that itself is something. She and I hung out with our boys on Saturday and had a blast. I just feel so held back with the whole situation, like I can't have any feelings for anyone without feeling guilty, god forbid I speak my mind or my entire world will come crashing down.
I think I'm going out with Josh Stanley just to hang on Friday night then spend Saturday with whoever and Sunday with the family.
I got my homecoming dress and I really wish I could find a picture of it, its cute.
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[02 Oct 2006|04:25pm] |
Things are changing fast fast fast around here. Josh Stanley and I are just friends. I'm seeing other people, having the time of my life with this amazing guy that I'm really into.. and really enjoying school. Now, Michele is speaking of Justin once again, maybe making plans to reunite in a couple weeks. It's really crazy how things are starting to feel like one big puzzle getting pieces together finally, it's hard to describe. But I'm not angry or anything anymore, I don't resent anyone and I just want to be the Erin that I've been my entire life without anything holding me back.
( Couple Weeks Ago )
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